This is a message to all my close friends and family regarding my ex fiancé Tyler Mark Harris.
I am in love with him.
During the past 6 months ,after our breakup, I started going down hill at a rapid pace. Everything that I did, everything I saw, every song I listened to reminded me f my best friend if 2 years. I could not function. So, I did what every depressed 20 something does and I tried suppressing those feelings with self medicating substances. Further away from God I drifted, pushing my family on the back burner and numbing my feelings. I was a mess. My head was a mess I had no handle on my life. All I knew what when the party left and the light turn off, I was completely alone. No one. Those were the nights I missed him the most. But I told myself, I don’t need him and he doesn’t need me. Even if I did profess my love for him, he wouldn’t want me.
I never said that I missed him out loud during the 6 months we were apart, until I saw him a few Sundays back. That was when I messaged him to meet up.
He agreed to meet with a mediator also in the room.
As soon as I walked in I couldn’t help but feel every emotion. Sad. Happy. Angry. Remorseful.
I know he is my person. He is my lobster. I am so deeply, madly, hopelessly in love with Tyler Mark Harris.
And I want to let everyone who is reading this know that Tyler is an amazing person. His heart is so big, he is so incredibly giving. He would literally give someone the clothes off his back, literally I’ve seen him do it. He never hesitates to do the right thing. He walks like Christ. He truly is the epitome of a man of God. And I know that I have spoken very poorly of him in the past and I want to publicly apologize for that. I was SO FAR from perfect while we were dating, so far. There were times where I was incredibly mean and not trusting and borderline crazy.
I just pray that everyone can give him a second chance like Tyler is giving me.